Between school starting and the hustle and bustle of everyday life, I managed once again to let the blog post slip....It wasn't intentional. I would always think, maybe I'll post later. Later came and passed and still no post. Life seems to have been a blur lately. I know you all can totally understand that. At what point do I slow down and take time to post. It is important because it is time I take for just myself. It also hold memories and stories that are precious. Now, we know that if I haven't made time to blog, I haven't written a thing down anywhere. Sure, I remember stuff about my life now, but in a year or two- or five..Will I remember? Not as well as I would if I took the time to post the highlights.
I have been taking a hard look at myself lately. Really soul searching and working on weaknesses. I have realized that some of our greatest strengths are are greatest weaknesses. It is hard. I mean, really hard to work on really bettering yourself. Nobody wants to admit thier weaknesses and flaws. In order to grow and be better it is something I must and am doing. It make take a whole lifetime, but I will get there.
We have been going to church. I was needing to get back in the groove of going, but an event, or series of events happened and it was the push that got me really needing church. Although, it was rough, I am so thankful the lord has been with me every step of the way and made everything and everyone align for support. It was ok for me to fall apart......and I did and I am slowing coming back together. Looking back, it is such a blessing. God molds and shapes us into who we are intended to be. He has been working on me and just in the last 4 months I have changed so much.
Kullen is growing so fast. He is about to be 10! When I started this blog he was 4 years old. He is in 4th grade and is doing so well in school. Sure, he struggles but he has managed to keep A/B Honor roll so far. I have all the faith in the world in him that he will succeed in whatever he puts his mind to. I am starting to see some pre-teenish behavior but I am trying to find ways to curve the attitude and teach him to be well rounded. We pray together every night and this has seemed to help him. He is sitting next to me- rolling with laughter watching t.v. This is just one of the many qualities I love about him. So fun loving! He has a big heart too. ;)
Reagan, ohhh, my sassy 30yr old stuck in a 4yr old body. She has been doing pretty well in school. I am pretty positive she is giving Mrs. Waldrop a run for her money. Her personality is very outgoing. Sometimes this is a great thing. She loves to sing and dance. She is the loudest little person I have ever witnessed. Her being so outgoing can something get her in to trouble as she doesnt listen. She loves everyone and I have to say she always has a smile on her face.
Adam & I have had some challenges lately with me being somewhat emotional, but I wouldn't say it was bad for our marriage. We both had God in our hearts but now we have got together and put GOD first in our lives. LETMETELLYOU, it makes a big difference. Adam is my best friend and I am so glad to have him to lean on.
I would like to think I have a new relationship with my Dad. I got over some things, and we moved on and we eat together every Sunday. I cant tell you how complete this has made me. Although I always wanted to place the blame on him, I know that I played a part in the distance too. Its hard to just bite the bullet, but I did and it got me what I wanted anyways and that was to have a good relationship with him. ( not that we ever didn't get along, we just would go awhile without talking)
So this includes my Step mom, which I call Gigi. We've gotten closer and she is a pretty wise lady. She gave me some really good advice and well, I just love her.
My memaw is still my best friend ever, we talk everyday. I despise the distance between us, but that doesn't matter. That woman is the greatest. I miss my family down there too. Cousins and such. You wouldn't be able to pry me away from my cousin Jana if I lived there. ;) My Step dad, Tom, I miss too. Alot of people don't understand why I consider him a Step dad. Well, he has always been there. When someone cares about you, you can tell if it is from the heart. Well, I know he loves me no matter what. I love him too. I know that if my mom was still here they would be together, or I would like to think that anyways, and I can think what I want to. lol So just because she is no longer here doesn't mean that I cant still love him. ;)
I've got a special post coming in a few days...
love,
Mandi
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