Lets just start out with saying, I am way stressed, and when I am stressed, I come here and write about it and it usually calms me down and its way cheap therapy.
>>>> I would love to torch this camper we have been calling home since August. I am. dead. serious. KABOOM, up in flames!
No I am not ungrateful, by any means, but enough is enough here. Camper life is simply...not for us.
I am more than ready for our house to be complete.
PRETTY much nothing has went on the BUDGET or TIMEFRAME that we originally had in place. And thats just plain reality for home building for ya. We are saving a whole lotta dough by doing majority of the work ourselves but some days I wonder if it was worth it. We honestly did not realize what all is involved in this whole process. We didnt realize how hard it would be.
August until now, have pretty much been a blur! I feel like I have missed out on precious Birthdays, Showers, friends having babies and Weddings ETC .......I have had to bow out of Photography to help Adam out. I know I am not much help, but every open helping hand or just company to talk to makes time go by faster.
None of this adventure has been normal at all, lots of tears, frustrations and fights, but it has forced me to face my OCD ways, it has made me live more humbly, knowing that my "camper" that I complain about I will eventually be out of and in a new home, is better than the cold dark alley that some may call home. My kids probably will never look at life the same as they now have went months with no toys. We are forced to eat together, communicate more. It has really tested my marriage and I dare not lie that if we make it through this whole ordeal, we can make it through anything. It has truly made us all THANKFUL.
We should be in by Christmas, every second counts right now! It kills me to say no to my friends when they just want to hang out, and no to my clients who just want pictures for Christmas. I hate saying no! I know they all understand, and I just feel pretty confident that next year, at this very time, I will be in my new home, with a warm and cozy fire going, chatting with my friend (s) or planning Mini Sessions.
I appreciate the kind words and encouragement from all of you, because even though I know this was self induced changes brought on by our (my husband and I) own choice to build, and that it is all going to be ok like here in the near future, buuuuuut It helps sooooooo much to have prayer and support.
At the end of the day,Even though I needed to vent out into the world via my own little cyber space, I am feeling so blessed. My heart is so full! Thankful, God is so good!
